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Blessed Sixteenth

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 13:31:04 GMT

Thank you, God, for such a wonderful time with best friends.

I couldn't ask for more. :D

Roxanne and my sixteenth birthday buffet dinner at the Furama Riverfront Hotel. The food was awesome, there was sushi and ice cream and nice cakes and all! Love you four.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 06:40:21 GMT

it's been a long time since i was last here. goodness knows where my tagboard disappeared to. i have no idea how to get it back. haha nevermind.

i really thank God for God. it's really incredible to have someone who loves you no matter what, who loves you through the good times and the bad.

i'm lousy when it comes to relationships. i can't maintain a good relationship for long. i think i need both my hands and my feet to count off the number of good friends who become ex-good friends because no one really bothered to keep it going. either that or the relationship lives in the past. we pretend that we're still the same when in fact things have changed and we've moved on. it's so saddening when that happens.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 11:53:23 GMT

of course.

of course I'm lying.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 10:47:28 GMT

"He lay far across the room from her, on a winter island seperated by an empty sea.

Wasn't there an old joke about the wife who talked so much on the telephone that her desperate husband ran out to the nearest store and telephoned her to ask what was for dinner? Well, then, why didn't he buy himself an audio-eashell broadcasting station and talk to his wife late at night, murmur, whisper, shout, scream, yell? But what would he whisper, what would he yell? What could he say?

And suddenly she was so strange he couldn't believe he knew her at all"

pg 41-42, Fahrenheit 451

I totally understand how Montag feels.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 12:43:45 GMT

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Sun, 03 Aug 2008 12:20:48 GMT

this is why childhood is so greatly valued.

kids can be satisfied with a candy bar or a new toy. it's that simple.

why can't i be as easily satisfied?

Friday, July 11, 2008

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 12:42:33 GMT

i thought you were this close to perfection. really, i did.

but you're just another one of them.

you know what?

whatever.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 12:12:42 GMT

i'm not so sure i'm over you yet

unsaid

Thu, 29 May 2008 10:27:56 GMT

haha jess was right. this blog might come in handy one day. it's been nearly five full months since i last blogged. five months seemed to have past so quickly. i think i've been learning alot along the way. making silly mistakes, really embarrassing ones, saying stupid things, making new friends, building up friendships, crying, laughing, loving. i must say i'm quite happy with how far i've come in the last five months. most of you probably can't see it but i know myself. i think differently now. i feel differently. i quite like growing up

i guess i finally decided to blog today because we stumbled upon something i want to talk more about during lit today. we didn't get a chance to go so deep during lesson. so here's a good place for me to say what i want to say.

!@#$ that's the face for 'censored' on xanga and its title.

so why must things be censored? when ms bong asked the class what kind of stuff are censored in singapore, there was a bunch of people who responded 'everything'. while i won't go as far to say that everything here is censored, i do agree that a lot of things are. the government is especially particular and sensitive about issues like race, homosexuality and sex. many books and movies have been banned in singapore becaues their content are too extreme or disagreeable and the board censored it.

should they?

from my point of view (i am speaking for me and me alone) yes. i think they should. the newspaper may be state controlled, half the movies that show in america don't show here. we don't have 'freedom of speech', some say. but really, are we better off with these things?

we are conservative society. we are an extremely young society. look at the discussions about gay marriages in singapore a couple of months back. there was already so much hoo-ha. our society (in my point of view) is simply not ready or mature enough to take on such 'liberated' practices.

even as individuals, how many adults are actually mature and sophisticated and perceptive enough to actually read or watch those books and movies that have been censored in singapore?

someone in class mentioned that an 18 year old male has to be prepared to fight and die for his country, why shouldn't he then be allowed to watch r21 shows? why is there still the r21 guide?

tell me, how many people past the age of 21 are actually even mature enough to watch those rated movies? many a time, we as individuals are not mature enough to. so how can we be entrusted with the responsibility to decide what we should and should not watch? perhaps mature adults would be discerning enough. but teenagers? so many are in a hurry to grow up. they want to rush to watch movies with extreme violence, sex and nude scenes. it makes them feel 'old'. not all are sensible enough to decide for themselves. is it healthy? is it good for our country's future? when you throw national interest in to the picture, censorship is something we can't do without.

the government does have a moral duty to society. whenever something goes wrong, we blame the government. censorship is a step they have taken to ensure that our moral fibre stands. there is a proverb that says to teach a child the right way from young, and he will grow up in it.

i'm not being the govt's advocate, really. haha. but the movie ratings are just guides. they are generic. some 16 year olds might be mature enough to watch r21 shows. but not all are. but we can't really judge a person's maturity and decide who should be allowed to watch what on an individual basis. there are limits to what the govt can do. they can't please everyone. but as far as it goes, i think they're doing fine. i always hear people criticising the govt or specifically the pap. i used to do that too (not on my blog or anything public of course). but then my dad got me to realise that its not that easy being the govt. and you know, how many of us can actually do a better job? they may be traditional, conservative. but really, all these are to meet the people's needs. i honestly don't think our society is ready for hippies to colonize collages and gays having kids. i'm not saying all of it wrong, i'm just saying our society's not there yet. i know there are many things that can be better in this nation. there are many things i desire as well, like a diff education system and so on. but really, learn to see that they're just trying to give us the best plan. and unless and unless we can think of a better solution, let's stop complaining, shall we?

your thoughts are most welcome(:

farewell post

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 14:49:12 GMT

i have discovered, realised and established that blogging is not my thing. it's too big a commitment. just like any relationship. haha just that blogging is between me and err. space, essentially.
ah nvm if you don't get what i'm saying. just typing a last post to let everyone know that it's time to put the blog to sleep. euthanesia, i would say. (: haha.

many a time, i have something to blog about. i have a lot to say, i'm sure everyone knows. haha. but i just can't get myself to type it here. some things are too personal, some things lost their weight by the time i get online, some things just can't be said, and some things are better left unsaid.

i'm growing up, i'm moving on(: